For any college football fans out there, I waited on Brian Kelley last night. He is the head football coach at Notre Dame. Really funny guy, definitely down to earth and not someone who think he is God's gift to this earth. It is kind of refreshing because the clientele we get is a higher end, wealthier group and some of those people really need to be knocked down a couple pegs.

Awake My Soul

So I'm really not good at this up keeping a blog thing. Usually I have some things on my mind that I want to get out, but don't want to sit down and write them all at once simply because I'm lazy. So, what I do is right a short blurb about how I'm back and that I'm going to carry on updating the blog... well, *cough cough* bullshit and as anyone can see the idea is great and there but the follow through clearly gets an "F."

So I believe it has been about 5 months since I last posted if I am remembering correctly which a lot has happened in that short time. First, as I mentioned before I took some classes at Middlesex so see what else might be out there for me and I believe that I have found it. I was always so interested in psychology when I was at UConn and took a couple classes and this spring I enrolled in an Abnormal Psych class. Studying why people the way they are how the brain works in some, but not others is absolutely fascinating. I plan on heading back to Storrs in the fall to work on my masters and eventual PhD in Clinical Psychology. I have always had a knack for helping people listening and giving advice. If there is one thing that I really like to do it is make people feel great, maybe I might not always do it but I try. SO its back to school for me which really isn't a bad thing as my soccer refereeing is not only still there, but is continuing to to grow. I was selected for a weekly award give out by US Soccer to the best referee performance in their top youth development league for the whole country. Next stop is Frisco, TX for the playoffs for that league. I head out the 23rd and will be back the 28th. I'm not sure how much I'm looking forward to the heat but the football should be great and it will be a chance to get away from CT for a week and do what I love to do. Between school, soccer, a new restaurant job in New Haven, and a relationship I really overloaded my schedule and took no consideration for what I was actually able to handle, but that is another blog for another time. The winter passed and so came the spring and the end of school and a brand new job in Old Saybrook at the brand new restaurant in the hotel on the point. It is such a different experience from Middletown and New Haven. The money is great, but the pressure to know everything about the food and service is high, but it is a welcomed challenge because I know that I will be able to not only succeed, but be the absolute best. Personally, today, I am struggling as the one person, who is such a large part of my life, and myself aren't talking. Apparently space was needed to decide to what was actually wanted. This is someone I love and I respect more than anyone else in the world, she is the strongest person I have met and could only pray to have same strength in my life, so I have no choice but to allow for that. I couldn't put up a stink or make a big deal because it is what she wants, and that's okay. The hurt is deep, it's not a hurt that came from the other person, it's from the interim loss from everyday to not at all and it is very hard. Scientists say that the brain treats separation like death because the it cannot differentiate between the two, it just falls under the category of loss, and that is why we get so upset and feel so terrible when things like that happen. We can only hope though that things happen for a reason, or that it is for the best. Its hard to believe that this feeling is what accompanies what is for the best, but only time will tell. Seconds feel like minutes, minutes feel like hours, and hours feel like days but for now, it is one day at a time.

Kind of a low note to end on so let's all get back on the same plane and gather around a common, uniting property... LeBron James and how much we really don't like him. I can safely say with the utmost confidence that I could not have played any better myself = )