Yeahh... Still Up

Forgiveness.... Not the kind which those who love you give, but the kind that you have to give to yourself. Even when those people who mean so much to you give you what you need, it still doesn't seem like enough. Days, weeks, months, coming up on a year later you see how one incident, one very large mistake, one thing you wish you could take back, one thing that you hope doesn't ruin the best thing that has ever happened to you, still is an open wound. How am I supposed to move on from this seeing how much it still hurts? Seeing the hurt in your eyes, your tears tears my insides out. I could never do anything to hurt you like that, not that I needed to learn that because you are the one person I cannot hurt and knowing that I did will always live in that part of my brain I wish that I could get rid of until the day I die and even then I'll be wherever I am, still so sorry. You've always been the most important part of my life and all I can say is that I love you and I am sorry... I am so sorry